Today is yet another day. I spent yesterday reminiscing about time with Shadow and all the fun and love we shared. Turned the phones, answering machine off and set my cell phone to vibrate. No distractions. If I am to deeply grieve for only a day it needs to be deeply felt and taken seriously. There were times of great sadness and great happy memories. I kept my promise to Shadow and enrolled in college for fall. I am on two waiting lists but at least I took the step forward. I decided not to enroll for summer school at college to give myself some time to get my act together. This means getting back on track with my eating, exercising, emotional state, getting control on cleaning the house, and becoming happy again. Long story short.....getting back to me and taking care of ME! Something that I am very foreign with.
So today I had some emotional outbursts over missing her but was able to push them aside and think of the promise I made to her. I won't wallow in grief, she wouldn't want that. So once again I tried to eat something. Since I didn't feel like cooking, I took the easy way out and ate some cereal. WRONG IDEA!!!! I know better than this! Thankfully, I only ate a small bit about 1/4 of a cup and put it aside. An hour and a half later, decided on some chicken salad. That I am happy to say stayed down.
Part of my process of moving on was to continue with my blog. I was re-inspired after tuning into the movie Julie and Julia. As many of you know both are close to my heart....writing and cooking!!! Ha ha!! I have to admit to all of you that things are sort of shaky with the structure of the BLOG as of yet, but hoping soon to get it back to the fun, quirky, informative, and sometimes bizarre creature that it is. Oh wait....that was my mind I was talking about. :o)
So please bear with me and I hope continue to follow me through a very interesting journey of discovery, change, and just life transforming. I hope you enjoy this and will come back often.
