I'm still having trouble trying to get more than 3 hours of sleep, but this morning I forced myself to get some more sleep after I woke up at 1am. I was only able to get 2 more hours but I will take what I can get.
Today was a day of preparing for the rest of, well, life. I had to go out and buy some more chicken to boil up for Shadow, since that seems to be the only thing that she is handling right now, and I'm not messing with a good thing. I am loving the fact that I can see a slight change in her appearance, it could be wishful thinking, but I think she is not so skinny now. She is still really sick and skinny but she is such a strong girl and is fighting with all she can. So I will fight right with her!!!!
I am finding that I have to be really task orientated in making sure everything gets done. I still have all the responsibilities that I had before, but now there is no time for slacking off or letting things slide. If I have to take care of my mom and sister, it has to be done around Shadows schedule not theirs. My baby has to come first above all else!!!
So I have to get back into the routine of cooking meals ahead of time to make sure everything fits into place. It's going to be a little stressful for awhile until I get the routine down, but I can do it. I am also making sure that I am going to take care of myself above all else too! I can't take care of Shadow if I don't take care of me. I can't be heavy and run down with no energy to make time with her. And as you all know she is the light of my life!
So that is what the days hold in store for me. But I can do it!! I have to do it!!! There is no other choice for me!
