Today I finally finished painting the bathroom! What an acomplishment!!! The best part was that I did it all myself. I made up my mind that I was going to do it, and I did. I had a few snags along the way with some eating out of frustration but by the second day that had subsided.
Now that I finished the bathroom, my eyes have been opened to just how insane my reality is. I want to have people over for Easter for a BBQ, but it took me almost a week to just paint the bathroom. I would still like to have my friends over, but I'm not sure I can realisticly get the house cleaned to my satisfaction in time. I am feeling so good about what I've done, I would hate to completely beat myself up by not being able to get the house clean.
This doesn't mean that I am going to abandon my dream of having people over, I just have to face what I can do within the time alloted. No more sabatoging myself by unrealistic goals. Little steps. I will get there, but I want to get there happy not neurotic!!!
So for today...it's a great day!!! I am feeling on top of the world, and want to hold on to that feeling. It's funny, it's been the little things lately that have gotten me feeling like my old self. So I guess the saying, don't sweat the small stuff, really has meaning to it. I'm not going to sweat the small stuff, I worth more than that. It feels good to say that and to actually feel that. Who knows....maybe I will be ok after all!!!
