February 4th was my last posting, and now it's the 25th. I am still taking care of my mom. She is doing much better, in fact her cast finally came off and they have her in a wrist brace. The shoulder however, still has to be immobilized.
I can't believe how lost I have been. Even though I have my computer out here, the signal stinks and I can't stay online very long. But more than that, I have lost myself. Things that I normally find enjoyment in have not interested me. It could be because my sister wants to do everything that I am doing or to tell me that she used to do it this way. Well today, I decided to do for myself.
For Lent, I gave up rice, pasta, bread, and sugar. These are all things that I shouldn't be eating anyway. But I figured that this would be a good time to get my head on straight and start losing the weight again. It seems like it's working so far, I have lost 9 pounds. Woohoo!!!
This morning, I decided that it was time to start my strength training again. I bought some weights that I can do some simple things to start getting me back into shape to really start lifting the heavy stuff. It felt soooo good this morning to do some squats and some barbell work. I felt it afterwards, but I "felt" like ME again. I felt in control of what I was doing with my body. I was happy!!!!
After working out a bit I found that I was able to deal with my sister better. Stress didn't gang up on me so fast. Who knew, and only after a month of being held hostage. LOL.
Tomorrow I get to go home to see my hubby for the weekend. I have to keep my head in the game and not eat a bunch of stuff that I'm not supposed to. I'm not talking about the carb or sugar stuff. I have will power not to eat that stuff, but it's the meat and constant snacking on things I can eat. I know I can do this. I WILL do this!!!
Right now, I get to relax for about an hour. The neighbor took my mom and sister with her to go buy some hay. This is time I'm going to use for me. I may reflex on what I'm doing with my life, or I may just run around in my underwear singing like risky business, who knows. For now I am enjoying the quiet. So I leave you with the hopes of a better and brighter day.
