I sit here once again at 2am in the morning, preparing myself to head off to the gym. My horoscope all week has been dropping me hints that it's time to get back to my fitness. I think it's time I listen to it. I've been away from the gym for about two weeks for one reason or another and I can tell you that I haven't been me. There is something about going that makes me feel really good. Now don't get me wrong I have had a blast spending time with my new BFF's and taking time for me, but I really need to get back to ME in my fitness. I am starting my program over once again. I am going to weigh all of my food, log all of my food, and start tracking fitness. I saw a photo that Lori had taken of me bowling the other night....and wow!!! Yeah, I've lost some weight...but baby got back!!!! I'm still looking like a brick!!! So I'm going to try and forget about the way I normally think of things like, I'm starting today and if I fail, then well I'll start tomorrow. No more!!! If I fail then, I start again the next meal, or next workout. I have to be serious about getting this weight off. I want to be able to go shopping with my friends, I want to go dancing and not worry about if anyone can hear my stomach slapping against my thighs, I want to be able to wear that sexy hot dress, I want to be fit!!!! I don't want to be thin....those days are over....I am now a woman and I just want to be healthy and fit. The thin will come from the plastic surgeon...LOL!!! But in all seriousness, I don't ever want to be "thin" again. I want to be comfortable!!!
I have found new support so maybe this time things will flow a little smoother. Not to mention that I have gotten a taste for living life again, and I like it!!! I didn't realize just how much I missed it. Well it's now time to go get my sweat on!! LOL
