A lot has happened this week. I know, get off your can and write about it and not leave us guessing. Sorry, I will trya nd get better.
To start the week off, I had to take mom in for some physical therapy. She is doing really good too. However, she made the mistake of telling her PT that Kelly and her were eating gummy worms under my nose!!!! So he promised me that he would work her hard...lol!!!! After I took them back home, I had talked to a friend of mine who is still looking for a job. I found an e-mail that there is a job fair being held Tuesday April 6th at 10am. Well he has an appointment with EDD (unemployment) and can't make it. So I told him that I would go and check it out for him to see who is hiring and what is out there. Then I got thinking....this would be a good time for me to look to see what is out there for me. It's been seven years since I have been in the work force and I need to see what I am up against. Not to mention that I am feeling really good about myself right now and would be able to carry myself professionally. I'm not, but I am, looking for a job. I'm not taking any resume's with me because mine really needs to be worked over. I am the same person as before but the wording is not right for me now. But should I talk with someone that would like to talk to me further....I'm not against it.
I was going to wear the same outfit I wore last Easter. It's a little frilly for job searching but I didn't want to buy new clothes for something I wasn't serious about. I felt good in it and looked fairly good too. So that's that. I had made my decision.
Tuesday comes along and I have to take Kelly into get some lab work done, then mom to the doctor to see about her eye sugery. Yep the surgery is still on for April 13th. Sigh. But she needs to get it done. Well time got away from us and I wasn't able to take them shopping. So I told mom that I would come back out the next day to take them shopping. I'm glad I did!!!
In the back of my mind, I am thinking about this job fair. I am starting to get excited about going, even if I don't really get a job. I have been doing some writting for a friend of mine and it's bringing out the old me. The over achiever, administrative me. It feels good!!! I feel good about me!!!! Yep, you heard me....I FEEL GOOD ABOUT ME!!!! So we are walking around WalMart and I happen to see this cute blouse that is on clearance. The blouse is a size 4x. I know a 4x will come close to fitting because that is the size of the outfit I was going to wear. Not to mention, I had gone through my closet and all of my old dress clothes are huge!!! No way could I look professional in those!!! Sigh....some of those outfits, I had only worn once or twice, and they were nice outfits too. Anyway, looking a little further, I found a blue and white dress, also in a 4x. I thought, what the hey, at least try it on. Well I went and grabbed my mom and made her come with me for support. I tried on the blouse, too tight around the belly for me to be comfortable. Then I tried on the dress, OMG it fits and looks really nice on me!!!! I couldn't believe it!!! The best part is that I can't really see how big my belly is!!!! I look hot!!!! So I grab the dress and we finish out our day. I go home and show Jim what I found. Not to mention, it was only eighteen dollars!!!! My clothes usually cost like fifty to sixty at least!!! I tried it on for him and he was amazed and so happy for me.
The next day, Jim took me to Catherine's to look for a suit for the job fair. When we got there, I found two outfits that fit and looked really nice on me too. I can't believe this. I have never been so happy shopping. I also found three bras that I liked and they fit really well too!!! It was such a joy to go shopping again and feel like a woman again.
The next couple of days was spent looking for the right shoes out of my closet, the right jewelry to wear, and as all women know...the right purse to carry. The only thing that was eluding me was a pair of control panties. I wore them with my outfit last Easter to help keep the belly tight but now I can't find them. UGH!!! I will feel much more confident if I have them on. Even though I always hold my tummy in, I get tired, that's a lot of weight to be holding up. So with the panties on I can relax every once and a while. Well as of today I couldn't find them. I didn't want to go buy a pair because who knows when I will ever need them again. So as I'm doing laundry, I look around to some of the old clothes that I have saved from when I was thinner. I found the girdle that I wore for my wedding 13 years ago!!! Now, my dress was a size 30 but I only weighed 260 pounds. I am currently weighing in at 325!!! Now that is a difference of 65 pounds!!! I have to admit, I didn't think I could even get it over my hips let alone over my belly. But I hooked it all up and zippered the side and pulled them on. It took a little arranging but I was in them and they were not uncomfortable!!! The legs were even big!!!! OMG!!!!! I can't be any more excited!!! This is SO empowering to me that I'm not even sure I could explain it to you!!!
My outfit for Tuesday is a white jacket with black trim, a black and white plaid A-line skirt that hits about my knees, black and white platform heels (about 4 inches tall), and a gold necklace and earrings. And let me tell you, I feel hot!!! I know I am still quite large but I feel really good about myself. Oh you don't know how long I have waited to say that and really mean it!!
I have also done really good with my Lent sacrifice, and have not eaten any rice, bread, pasta, or sugar. In fact it's going so good that I am going to keep it up even after Easter. Yep, I said after Easter, I have to have some sugar....ok chocolate!!! LOL. But then it's back to being good.
Well that is all for now. Jim and I are taking mom and Kelly out for breakfast tomorrow for Easter, then it's home to relax with the hubby. I'll post some pictures of me in my new clothes as I get them taken.
I hope you all have a fantastic Easter and that all your dreams and wishes come true. It really can happen!!!!
