It seems like no matter what happens in life, I tend to put myself aside. So here I am back at point A again. But at least I keep trying right?!?!?! I hope so.
So here I sit waiting for the clock to reach 3:50am so I can head out for the gym. I was surprised that 2am didn't come hard this morning. Not that I've been sleeping good anyway, but still I didn't fight it like I thought I would. Which is another good sign. Took my blood sugar this morning and wanted to cry though. 133!!!! Man!!!! I haven't had sugars that high in a LONG time!!!! So if my weight isn't an issue for me my diabetes better be! I still don't know what is going to motivate me to keep on, other than I need to do this for myself. Once again, I need to quit hiding from life and need to start living it.
With protein shake down, heart rate monitor on, Mp3 and water bottle in hand, I head out the door. It's always hard to start again on anything, but I know that getting back to the gym, the one thing that truly makes me feel good, will make this journey a little easier! I hope....LOL.
