February 4th was my last posting, and now it's the 25th. I am still taking care of my mom. She is doing much better, in fact her cast finally came off and they have her in a wrist brace. The shoulder however, still has to be immobilized.
I can't believe how lost I have been. Even though I have my computer out here, the signal stinks and I can't stay online very long. But more than that, I have lost myself. Things that I normally find enjoyment in have not interested me. It could be because my sister wants to do everything that I am doing or to tell me that she used to do it this way. Well today, I decided to do for myself.
For Lent, I gave up rice, pasta, bread, and sugar. These are all things that I shouldn't be eating anyway. But I figured that this would be a good time to get my head on straight and start losing the weight again. It seems like it's working so far, I have lost 9 pounds. Woohoo!!!
This morning, I decided that it was time to start my strength training again. I bought some weights that I can do some simple things to start getting me back into shape to really start lifting the heavy stuff. It felt soooo good this morning to do some squats and some barbell work. I felt it afterwards, but I "felt" like ME again. I felt in control of what I was doing with my body. I was happy!!!!
After working out a bit I found that I was able to deal with my sister better. Stress didn't gang up on me so fast. Who knew, and only after a month of being held hostage. LOL.
Tomorrow I get to go home to see my hubby for the weekend. I have to keep my head in the game and not eat a bunch of stuff that I'm not supposed to. I'm not talking about the carb or sugar stuff. I have will power not to eat that stuff, but it's the meat and constant snacking on things I can eat. I know I can do this. I WILL do this!!!
Right now, I get to relax for about an hour. The neighbor took my mom and sister with her to go buy some hay. This is time I'm going to use for me. I may reflex on what I'm doing with my life, or I may just run around in my underwear singing like risky business, who knows. For now I am enjoying the quiet. So I leave you with the hopes of a better and brighter day.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
The fourth day out at mom's
Monday, I moved in with mom to help take care of her. I had forgotten how teadious it is to take care of some one who can't take care of themself. The first two nights I didn't get hardley any sleep. Mom was awake the whole first night and the second night mom had gotten a fever and I wasn't sure that the neighbor hadn't given her walking pneumonia.
My eating has become somewhat wonky to say the least. I have decided that I am going to go back to drinking two protein shakes and eating only one meal a day. So far I'm been drinking a protein shake and eating only one meal a day. It takes so long to get everything ready with my mom and sister. Geez.
If my sister wakes up early, she instantly wants to drink water, tea, OJ, more tea....etc!!! Then it's up to both of them to decide what they want to eat. I'm used to a meal for breakfast, and they are used to toast and coffee. Hmmmm, that is going to change!!!!
But mostly breakfast is first thing in the morning, lunch is usually skipped because if I take them shopping, it takes all day!!!! So then we eat an early dinner and that is the end of the meals.
Trying to make a fire in the wood stove every morning is a task within it's self. It took me almost 3 hours to finally get the stove burning good enough that I didn't have to watch it constantly. The problem is that mom had bought some wood that was not seasoned and stored it outside in the rain. I have bought some hot wood to help get it hot enough to sort of dry out the wood, but it still takes forever!!!!
But enough complaining. Things aren't too bad, just different. I am looking forward to going home Saturday to spend some time with my hubby and dog. I really miss them!!!
My internet signal is only one bar so I may not be alble to post everyday, but I will try.
Until then, I hope things are going well for all. Now what's for lunch?!?!! LOL!!!!
My eating has become somewhat wonky to say the least. I have decided that I am going to go back to drinking two protein shakes and eating only one meal a day. So far I'm been drinking a protein shake and eating only one meal a day. It takes so long to get everything ready with my mom and sister. Geez.
If my sister wakes up early, she instantly wants to drink water, tea, OJ, more tea....etc!!! Then it's up to both of them to decide what they want to eat. I'm used to a meal for breakfast, and they are used to toast and coffee. Hmmmm, that is going to change!!!!
But mostly breakfast is first thing in the morning, lunch is usually skipped because if I take them shopping, it takes all day!!!! So then we eat an early dinner and that is the end of the meals.
Trying to make a fire in the wood stove every morning is a task within it's self. It took me almost 3 hours to finally get the stove burning good enough that I didn't have to watch it constantly. The problem is that mom had bought some wood that was not seasoned and stored it outside in the rain. I have bought some hot wood to help get it hot enough to sort of dry out the wood, but it still takes forever!!!!
But enough complaining. Things aren't too bad, just different. I am looking forward to going home Saturday to spend some time with my hubby and dog. I really miss them!!!
My internet signal is only one bar so I may not be alble to post everyday, but I will try.
Until then, I hope things are going well for all. Now what's for lunch?!?!! LOL!!!!
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