While the hubby and I vegetate at home, the phone rang. To my pleasant surprise it was Spencer. Spencer is a fellow student in the karate classes, but more so, he is a good friend. He asked what we were up to and if we would like to join him in going to the movies tonight. Wow the last time Jim and I were at a movie was about two years ago. Yep, it's been that long. So naturally we said yes.
We agreed to go see Terminator Salvation. I was sort of reserved with my opinion of weather or not I would like it. The other previous ones were kind of cheesy. I was pleasantly surprised though. It was actually pretty good. The soundtrack would be awesome, and the naked remake of Arnold wasn't bad either. Hee hee. *Blushes*
We had a great time. The company was great and being out again was a nice change. We ended our evening with plans to see each other again on Monday. We are having a BBQ with my mom, sister, and Spencer. It has been so long since we have done anything like this, that it feels almost like a first date. You know how you get anxious, jittery with excitement, nervous that everything is going to go ok. But I think the best part is going to be spending time with family and friends.
I can't believe that it's 10:30pm and we are still awake. LOL. (laugh out loud). Shadow is glad we are home, and she's telling us it's time for bed as she climbs under the covers. So with this I bid you a good night, while I dream happy thoughts of today's occurrences.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
A huge boost to my ego
I have been feeling a little down lately with the bills piling up and just life happening. Although I have been going to my karate classes, I don't feel like I have been consciously there. I watch and pay attention to the instructor but the wiring from my head to my body, I think, needs to be rebooted. Better yet it needs to be defraged, (that is when you have your computer put all the files, and misc items, back in order). Let me tell you the files and misc items are really out of order in my head right now.
Today was the self defense class. About an hour and a half before class I was trying to talk myself into going or not going today. I was weighing my pros and cons. Well, no matter how much I may not feel like going, the karate is the one thing that brings me happiness. So I grabbed my things and off to the gym I went.
When I arrived at the gym, there was only one other student there. I walked in, took off my shoes and started my stretching. It was five after eleven and no instructor. The other student asked if I would mind starting the class with the basic blocks. I agreed. It didn't hurt that she said she likes learning from me too. There were two other ladies that were there, and low and behold, they were there for the class too!! We lined up and I started the instruction. I had to make sure that I remembered the exact way that I was taught. I would never forgive myself if I taught them wrong!
We got in a couple of runs on the blocks and Carl, the instructor, shows up. He thanked me for taking over and starting the class. I had to tell him that it was the other ladies that asked me to do it. I fell back into line and we preceded with the class. After we brought out the mats, Carl asked me to help him teach the class. Oh wow, I could feel my heart leap!!
Carl would show the new students the steps one by one, and then they would come over to me for practice. Meanwhile, Carl would continue working the students that weren't working with me. The only down side to this whole thing is that I didn't really get to practice myself. Thankfully I knew the moves and was able to help them out.
After class, Carl thanked me again for helping, and one of the students asked me if I could help her a little bit more. Of course I said yes! We went through the five basic blocks and I was able to help her clean up her form a little bit. She was very thankful and so was I.
I felt like I was walking on clouds after class. The biggest accomplishment though, other than helping with the class, was I saw myself in the mirror. Now I haven't looked at myself in a mirror for years. If I did look in a mirror, it was from my shoulders up. But this time I saw myself. I saw that my stomach still has a skirt of fat on it, it jiggles back and forth when I move, and it didn't make me want to cry. I am learning to accept myself. However the previous compliments on teaching the class helped too.
So now I am motivated to get back on track. I will hold these good thoughts with me always, and pull them back out should I have a low day. One step at a time, my life will once again by mine.
So never give up, even though things may be tough. There is an open door somewhere and when you are ready to go through it, you will find it.
Today was the self defense class. About an hour and a half before class I was trying to talk myself into going or not going today. I was weighing my pros and cons. Well, no matter how much I may not feel like going, the karate is the one thing that brings me happiness. So I grabbed my things and off to the gym I went.
When I arrived at the gym, there was only one other student there. I walked in, took off my shoes and started my stretching. It was five after eleven and no instructor. The other student asked if I would mind starting the class with the basic blocks. I agreed. It didn't hurt that she said she likes learning from me too. There were two other ladies that were there, and low and behold, they were there for the class too!! We lined up and I started the instruction. I had to make sure that I remembered the exact way that I was taught. I would never forgive myself if I taught them wrong!
We got in a couple of runs on the blocks and Carl, the instructor, shows up. He thanked me for taking over and starting the class. I had to tell him that it was the other ladies that asked me to do it. I fell back into line and we preceded with the class. After we brought out the mats, Carl asked me to help him teach the class. Oh wow, I could feel my heart leap!!
Carl would show the new students the steps one by one, and then they would come over to me for practice. Meanwhile, Carl would continue working the students that weren't working with me. The only down side to this whole thing is that I didn't really get to practice myself. Thankfully I knew the moves and was able to help them out.
After class, Carl thanked me again for helping, and one of the students asked me if I could help her a little bit more. Of course I said yes! We went through the five basic blocks and I was able to help her clean up her form a little bit. She was very thankful and so was I.
I felt like I was walking on clouds after class. The biggest accomplishment though, other than helping with the class, was I saw myself in the mirror. Now I haven't looked at myself in a mirror for years. If I did look in a mirror, it was from my shoulders up. But this time I saw myself. I saw that my stomach still has a skirt of fat on it, it jiggles back and forth when I move, and it didn't make me want to cry. I am learning to accept myself. However the previous compliments on teaching the class helped too.
So now I am motivated to get back on track. I will hold these good thoughts with me always, and pull them back out should I have a low day. One step at a time, my life will once again by mine.
So never give up, even though things may be tough. There is an open door somewhere and when you are ready to go through it, you will find it.
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