Morning everyone. It is now time for me to face the facts. I went to the support group last night and it was a room full of people I really don't know. There were a few people that I was comfortable with but the energy that I was hoping for was not there. Jim and I stayed for about an hour and then I felt it was time to go. I was starting to revert inward and felt really uncomfortable. So we said good bye and excused ourselves.
We hadn't eaten yet and it was 8pm. We stopped at a place called Lumberjacks. The food was ok but let's face it, I was in no mood to make right choices or to even care last night. I ate some fried zuchinni, mushroom, and a couple of onion rings. Nothing really got stuck but I ate them anyway. My meal was a BBQ chicken wrap. I did only eat half of that.
We went home and I crashed. Zzzzzzzz!!!!
This morning I am trying to stay focused on what I need to do. I took my blood sugar this morning and it was 126 at 6:30am!!!! Darn it. That was the one thing I felt I had under control. So breakfast this morning was just some cottage cheese. I had promised Jim this morning not to make or bake anything. I will not break my word to him, so now what do I do.
I have decided to do some cleaning. Maybe if I clean the house, I can clean my head. Lord knows there is a ton of junk in both!!! So that is where I'm leaving things this morning.
One step at a time is all I can ask of myself right now.
